seeking answers

I keep thinking
These answers im searching for
Will be in the past
Lodged deep in my memory
As though I already know
And if I dig deeply enough
The truth will be uncovered

But maybe
I never encountered answers
In the first place
And my fruitless attempts
To untangle what lies dormant
In my mind
Are preventing me
From finding what I seek

And when I do finally know
Ill realize
Ive wasted far too much time
Searching for something
That wasn’t yet there
Instead of waiting patiently
For the answers to come
When they’re meant to

But sometimes
Life feels like a circle
And I return to the same problems
Time and time again
Encountering the past
In the present
And anticipating the future
While in the now

I cant tell sometimes
If time is even real
When everything
Seems to cycle around endlessly