the gap.

Putting hope on a pedestal
Although it’s fallen off in the past
Maybe this time
Things might be different

Torn between
Accepting the minimum
And the belief
That maybe i deserve more

Trying to treat myself
As though im a close friend
Rather than a burden to carry

Attempting to move forward
Although sometimes i feel stuck in place
It’s easy to forget
That life is constantly changing
And where i am
Is not where ill always be
Nor where i have been before

I thought forward
To where i am now
In the past
Thinking that
Once i make it
Ill finally be able to just be
And life will fall into place

And maybe in some ways it has
But the journey never ends
I suppose thats a blessing and a curse

Sometimes I feel satisfied
But oftentimes this isnt the case
Especially when the gap between
My reality and my dreams
Looks impossibly far

Each day i step forward
Sometimes I fall backwards
No matter how much time passes
The gap remains impossibly large