i started over

we talked for hours everyday
about everything
we were best friends

and now
diminished to a single word
“crazy”

how did this happen?
was it doomed from the start?
or were we young and foolish?

falsely believing
we had all the answers

desperately hoping
it would all make sense

but i guess it didnt
and here we are
years later
completely detached
yet somehow
always connected

despite the pain and confusion
lies and deceit
i still wish you well

maybe ill never know
if it was worth it
maybe ill never be
the person i once was
and maybe we
were never supposed to be together

but maybe that was the point
all for a lesson
that destroyed

my mind
my body
my soul

so i could start over