Social Isolation Diaries #2

I’ve put off blogging for about a week because I’m honestly so tired of writing about Corona. I mean, what else is there to say? Also, this is my 100th blog post! So there’s a bit of pressure in making this significant in some way.

But, alas, with the eight hours of Netflix I watch everyday, I feel uninspired and lethargic. Every night I go to bed and know that I’m just gonna repeat the same activities tomorrow. It feels like I’m in the movie Groundhog Day.

I cycle between feeling calm and relaxed and pacing around the house in a panicked frenzy. Maybe my mind needs this in some way? I try to find the silver lining in everything and I’ve spent the past three weeks convincing myself that this time is some important learning opportunity.

But as soon as I think that, I worry that it’s selfish to try to gain something from quarantine. People are dying and that renders my own personal needs pretty insignificant.

However, I’ve gotta be honest though and say that I wonder how this quarantine is impacting my (and everyone else’s) mental health. How can we stay sane when so much insanity is happening around us? I mean, we’re all collectively living through a traumatic experience right now and have no escape. Is it better to pretend it isn’t there and indulge in hours of distraction, waiting for this strange time to end eventually? Or should we feed into our fear and stare Corona in the face, consuming article after article of information until we’re convinced the entire world is ending?

I know those are extremes, and there is probably some healthy medium, but I’ve yet to find a balance. How do we process what’s happening around us in a healthy way when everyday the situation seems more and more dire? I’m nervous this will go on for a few more months, at least ,and I’m struggling to handle a few weeks.

I wonder how other people are staying sane right now or if they’re as stir-crazy as I am. 

It’s not so bd, though. I’ve been working on a few personal projects over the last few weeks, and those have added a bit of structure to my life. I’ve found that always working towards some sort of goal makes life feel less meaningless (well so much for the silver lining).

Hopefully a vaccine is made soon because the longer we’re in quarantine, the harder it will be to move forward with our lives.